Friday, 1 January 2016
Could Try Harder
I'm a bit torn about 2015 TBH. On a personal level it was a great year full of fun times, and one in which none of that Bad Shit waiting in the wings of every life (yes, every life) was given its cue to lumber onstage. It Was Good. Even if I did start going grey...
Gold star 2015!
But I didn't get enough writing done. For great swathes of time other things took priority. And when I did have time I very very often managed to fuck it up. My procrastination fairy is earning bonuses. And nothing is more unsettling to a writer than not writing, believe me. It is the loose shale undermining a mountain of crazy just waiting to crash down.
I'm less driven as I get older, I know that. I'm less idealistic about the possibility of breaking through to a mass readership (Hah!) but I'm also genuinely lazier, I'm afraid. I used to rely a lot on my inner determination and work ethic to see things through, but alas ... the fuel tanks of Protestant guilt are finally running dry.
I think I may also be having too much good sex to need to write about it any more. What can I say?
Anyway, I'm going to try to turn things around in 2016. I've promised I'll get The Valleys of the Earth out (that's Cover Him With Darkness #2) because quite a few people want to see that.
It's my resolution for 2016.
And here's wishing you all, whether you've made resolutions or not, a very Happy New Year. May 2016 be better than 2015, that's all any of us can hope for :-)